Tuesday, November 08, 2005

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Monday, November 07, 2005

Dad Gave Me a Prezzie for my 20th!

He gave me a very beautiful one indeed! And I'm very touched, truly I am. Ok. Ok. You can return to normal mode now. Don't need to be so shocked la. My dad definitely didn't wake up from the dead (eventhough sometimes I wish he could and be human again).

Actually, before he passed away, he bought a gold bangle for me. And because he loved it so much he decided to get an adult replica of the bangle. He told my mom that he wants me to always wear the bangle and when I outgrow the small one there's another one to replace it. I'm guessing that he wants me to always remember him. He instructed my mom to present me the bangle on my 20th birthday. And she did.

Initially I was shocked myself when mom gave me the present. She said, "Nur, this is from your dad". I was like," What?!!!, Are you for real?". And I opened the box and saw the very exact one I used to wear when I was little.

And it wouldn't be Nur-Mashurie Mohtar if she didn't shed tears. Haha! And I started crying thinking of all the good cherished moments I had with my dad. And wishing that we still could do the things we used to. Unfortunately not.

Ok lah, before I get emo again! I shall go to the mama shop and buy ciggies (errmmm...something my dad wouldn't have approved if he was alive! Heh!)

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12:18

Simply Madness!

Still feeling very blue, I decided to go shopping yesterday. ALONE! So sad, I feel so sad. And I'm still feeling sad. I'm so bloody affected. So bloody emotional.

I headed to town and went on a stiletto spree! I bought a total of 4 pairs. After which, I went home and this was my mom's reaction:

"Hey Nur, your cousin getting married but she pun didn't buy up to 4 pairs you know! Dia yang nak kahwin ke kau yang nak kahwin?!".

And so I replied cheekily, "Maybe I am mother". I was joking.

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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

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See... I can't even produce a title for this entry. My mind isn't at ease. It's feels like my nerves and blood vessels are in knots. And I don't know which knot to untie first.... I've got too many things in mind and I feel extremely crappy (ever since last Saturday).

I thought I could shake the feeling off by partying on Halloween... Initially, I did have fun but then history had to repeat itself all over agian for the second time within a week! Jeez! Like I didn't get enough the other day!

Aiyah... no point me blogging... it's not helping at all... I'm feel more blergh! I should just stop loving people and caring for them! And in addition trying to save them.Yeah! I think I should practice that from now on. It's not gonna be easy trust me, especially when it's coming from me. But I've got to try!

Anywyas, to all my Muslim friends, a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin.

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Saturday, October 29, 2005

Ladies and Gentlemen.

I've cancelled my birthday gathering.

I'm not up for it, so don't bother turning up later.

I'm disappointed, hurt and more hurt. Honestly, I've cried at my previous birthdays. It was tears of joy but early this morning was tears of pain. Thanks man. Thanks for the cake, the prezzies and the friends. But I've got to thank you most of all for making my 20th birthday the worst ever too! You sholdn't, shouldn't have invited that bugger! NO. NO. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But you did!

I've never walked out on you like that but this morning, (eventhough it hurts so much) I just had to!

I love you but today I hate you!

We're cool but not today.

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Sunday, October 16, 2005

Wala Wala

I had dinner at Wala Wala just now and I just got back. No alcohol involved *winks*. I swear. It was just dinner and fizzy drinks. Dinner was great. I've got so many clubbing/drinking invites the past week but I'm proud to say that I turned them down.

Thanks peeps for the great dinner.

Aite...I'm gonna return to painting the four walls again...

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

One Night Stand

Just received this pic.


from left to right: Jaime, D & moi


About a couple of weeks ago, we celebrated our Dearest Single D's birthday. The birthday boy insisted to have the party at One Night Stand, Clark Quay. So on behalf of him, I called the club and reserved a table for us.

The birthday boy hardly gets high, what more drunk. Furthermore, it's difficult to get him drunk coz we've attempted and we didn't succeed.

He opened 2 bottles that night, 4 jugs, sambuca and tequila shooters as well. Woah!! He kept the drinks coming and we kept drinking! We had pre-ordered a tiramisu cake coz it's his favourite. So when the caked arrived with candles all lit-up, we asked him to make a wish. This was what he wished for:

1. To get pissed drunk &
2. To get laid that very night

Aww... D, unfortunately only half your wish came true. Guess which one?! Guess people!!!!!!

Man... with the amount of drinks that were ordered, woah..... he definitely got freaking pissed drunk! Hah! What a surprise dude.... We've never seen you in that ugly state and we wish not to see it again. But I guess I know why... You know I know. So just hush hush. *winks*

He KO at 0130 hours. He can't even stay awake. He vomitted so much till there was thick blood - inflamation... He can't even stand up to walk. Poor Jaime had to drive him home.

For the rest of us, it was definitely to early to head home. So, we decided drink, ****** and club at Attica Too. Coz my friend knows the bouncer. Haha! I certainly saved 23 bucks on cover. We partied till 6am.

And that my friends, was the last time I clubbed - Sep 30. And as D, he couldn't remember nuts the following day!! Well, you sure got pissed drunk but not a one night stand!

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

No Music

I feel as empty as a drum. That's me now.

Nothing appeals or catches my attention. You can try placing a guy infront of my eyes and I'll just not turn my head. Even if i do, I'll probably squeeze his balls so hard that his eyes will pop out of the socket. That's how much angst I've got in me.

Even mom tried to cheer me up by bringing me to JB yesterday for shopping.... but to no avail. Trust me, not even the beautiful pointy stilettos helped! Hah!

This is definitely not me PMS-ing. PMS-ing is nothing compared to what I'm feeling at this current moment.

Aite. I'm done. I sit with no music to light my life.....

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Monday, October 10, 2005

Once Upon A Time....

There was a time when all these songs below meant something to me... I was transferring songs into my Creative Neeon and I came across songs which I haven't heard in a while. Songs that had bitter sweet memories...

So heres a quick recap:

• I'm So Into You (remix) - Tamia featuring Fabolous
• All Cried Out - Allure feat. 112
• One Sweet Day - Mariah Carey feat. Boyz II Men
• Tell Me How You Feel - Joy Enriquez
• We Need A Resolution - Aaliyah feat. Timbaland
• Crazy - KC & Jojo
• Officially Missing You - Tamia
• Don't Speak - No Doubt
• Get Away - Christina Millian feat. Ja Rule
• Forever - Damage

Those were the days.

Damn how foolish.

Cracks me up now.

Heh!

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Solitare

Life is like playing solitare. It's about making decisions and taking risks all the time. And when you're doing so, no one's there by your side, to guide you and tell you that you're doing the right thing and that you're doing perfectly fine. ABSOLUTELY NO ONE.

It's the same when you're sitting for an exam. Yeah, you're surrounded by other candidates but no one's gonna feed you with the answers. You ought to have read and studied the subject and understand it well before coming to the exam hall.

Or when you're having issues at hand, very crucial issues and you strongly feel that family would well listen, accept it and in return provide with the solutions or advice.... Jeez, that's when you're WRONG. You'll probably be right if you have an extremely beautiful, caring and understanding family. It doesn't work otherwise.

If that's the case, the next most right thing would be that you'll turn to your friends, especially close ones. Thinking that they would be of help. Na-ah! Na-ah! Not a very sensible thing. Again, if you have wonderful, helpful and sincere close friends....then yeah,. You'll get comfort and sincere listening ears and shoulders to cry on. I repeat, it doesn't work otherwise.

So much for family and friends huh....? They're not all what they seem to be and it's surprising isn't it? The people that you love and truly trust can't lend a helping hand. You might as well shove something up their f**king ass!

Hypocrites. Such a disappointment.

Well, playing solitare applies to life after death as well. When you die, you gonna die alone. And you gonna answer all questions individually. No family member or friend will do that on your behalf. Common verbal words uttered to each other, "Till death do us part". Which means, it's either you die first and you later or vice-versa. But if a car crashes and everyone dies, then yeah, they die together. They aren't many who'll say, "I'll die for you" (only soldiers at war-sincere...? we'll never know).

And when you're happy, will they be happy for you? When you're sad and shed tears, will they do the same by your side? When you're full of angst, will they calm you down and kick that person's ass for you? WILL THEY DIE FOR YOU?

Any problem, may it be big or small, thick or thin, you'll have to go through it alone. Sometimes, others could just make it worst, and not better - not adding water and cool it, but add sparks to the bushfire.

It hurts but I'll just continue playing solitare then. . . . . . .

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Bluek Yucky....


I'm feeling down and I can't put my finger on the reason why. Or maybe I'm just pushing the reasons away and be in denial. It urks me coz I feel crappy and yucky.

The time spent alone has got me thinking and realizing a lot of matters. Unfortunately, I don't like the feeling of that.

Somebody, puh-leez just punch me hard till I collapse and lay unconscious (or even better just put me to "sleep").

Firstly, I gotta learn to: ABSTAIN from a lot of things.

After I've conquered that area, then I'll proceed to the next. In the meantime,

I'll ABSTAIN! Even if it means that I have to give up certain things, I will. I promise I will. *cross my heart*

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Thursday, October 06, 2005

I'm Speechless!

Aite...

Results are finally out today.
And..........

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I passed all the modules! Unfortunately no As and Bs la... Just C+ and D+. But what the heck! All that matters now, I no longer need to go back to NP! I've had my fair share of 7 semesters there! Heh! Not proud of it though but that's life and I made it through!

Woohoo bebey! I officially declare myself a Mass Communication Graduant!! Yeah!

Call for another celebration babes? No worries, this time round, there'll be no alcohol involved. Just buka puasa somewhere and eat our hearts out. ;)

*Sing it with me!*

"Whoa-oa-oa! I feel good,
I knew that I would,
nowI feel good,
I knew that I would now..."

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Today felt refreshing. I fasted.

Done. That's all. ;)

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

I'm S00ooo Free till I Don't Know What To Do!

I 'm done washing the dishes.

Mom isn't home and we haven't eaten since morning.

So, I cooked up a simple dish for my bro and myself.

Yeah! You read it perfectly right! I'm learning how to cook!! It might not taste as good as mom's BUT it's still edible. Heh!

F**cking Shite! My mobile line has been disconnected! You can only reach me at my home number or via MSN.... Boring.... I doubt I'll be able to get back my line back anytime soon. *bleargh*

Anyways, moving on to more important stuff like.....


WOooooooW! Time sure fly fast, yeah? And before you know it, I'll turn 20! *winks*

Okkkkaaayy.... Anyone want to go JB? I want to go to the tailor and send my kebaya cloth la.....

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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Yeeha, Here I Come!

Today, mom bought me a pair of stilettos (which I've been eyeing for some time) for any future interviews.

And I truly hope that I'll be shortlisted for that interview soon!



Aldo

"This shoe is made for working,
And that's just what it'll do,
One of these days this shoe's gonna walk all over you!"

Muahahahahahahahahaha! Here's a boost to my confidence. Hehe.

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Old Habits Die Hard

I've been really spring cleaning my house and I chanced upon a few photographs. I haven't seen these in a really, really long while.



Singing 'Fantasia Bulan Madu' by Amy Search

Feeling very Superstar-ish, I loved to wear my dad's shades and attempted to sing at the same time. At the tender age of 2, I had no batang hidung you see.. So, the shades slided down my nose!!


HAHA! 18 years later, I still act like a Superstar! I'm still in love with shades and love to take photographs.



Posing for the Cam, heh ;)

No difference in me, except that my shades don't slide down my nose like it used too la (and perhaps a few other stuff).

Maybe... just maybe... be a Superstar one day....

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Saturday, September 24, 2005

My Goldfish Collection

It started out with just Fatty, Mohawk and a couple of other golfishes. Unfortunately after 5 weeks, Fatty died. It died a few days after I bought FattyII.




FattyII



Then, a couple of days ago, Mohawk got entangled in the plant and died. I guess Mohawk felt lost and lonely without Fatty. You see... They were very close and were always teasing each other.


I was kind of sad... So Mom decided to replace them with new goldfishes.


We went goldfish shopping. Heh!


We came home with these:




Black Lionhead, which I named Godfather! It's the biggest and looks very fierce.




Another Lionhead, Ballerina. Always doing synchronize moves underwater. Mom fell in love at the sight of that!



A Ranchu. I call it Mas (short for Emas). It's literally gold in colour.



Replaced Mohawk with MohawkII. That bugger is unique la. Miss it sey.



And Baby Spot - notice the orange spot on its head?


So Mom made me a happy girl today!

Thanks so much! All my PMS pain went away.

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Friday, September 23, 2005

Bad Boys, Bad Boys.. Watcha gonna do....?

I read this somewhere... Hear this:

"If a girl continually chooses bad boys, there must be something pathologically wrong with her."

So what now? *winks*

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Hilarious Man...

Ok.Yesterday, my sis and mom were discussing about getting an executive condominium at Yew Tee.

And I woke up this morning with this weird dream. I dreamt that we hired movers. Funny... cos the movers weren't human. They were monkeys!!! Golden Monkeys to be exact!! *kwa-kwa-kwa*

They were talking monkeysand very friendly indeed! What the f**k right?

;>

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Thursday, September 22, 2005

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Monday, September 19, 2005

Attention Ladies:
Er... In That Case,...

... I don't wish to step my feet there for the second time. This will be the first and the last I'm going there.

In excitement, I told my sis (just about 2 minute ago) about my lil' adventure yesterday to Mitre Hotel, off Killiney Road... At the same time, I showed her the pics.... The immediate reaction the second I mentioned Mitre Hotel at Killiney Road:

"What the f**k were you doing there??!! It's a WHORE HOUSE! Yes it was a hotel cum whore house. It's well known amongst the expatriates. Russians like to go there! Because they sell cheap drinks and all these pros can't afford higher priced ones..".

She further fed me info that it's a lower class prostitute place. Even Orchard Towers and Hotel 81 (Geylang) has higher standards. Bapoks like to go there too.

Er...Uh-oh... I swear I didn't know all these information.... Now the picture is clearer:

1) The weird posters on the wall... -with funny taglines & ang-moh men

So were these ang-moh men their regular customers?? That explains the posters...

2)The uncle/bartender says we can't go up to the rooms - reason being,"Can only go up in the day but not at night because the floor is unstable" - Yeah right....

The no entry sign

God! I'm going to sanitize my jeans and t-shirt. I sat on the freaking couch damn it!

Girls, Lets not go there anymore.... Cos we might be mistaken for whores!

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23:24

I Wish to Fly


Yo Liy, if I do get the stewardess job, I will send you many, many pics from overseas! *winks*

Rockey, wait by the mail coz you'll be expecting pics coming your way too! And of course the rest of you. - (if you want that is... I don't want to be wasting $$. Heh!)

Wish me luck!

Love,
Mashie

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Yesterday's Adventure


Shopping was excellent. I bought stuff at great bargains over at Bugis Village. Liy and I went crazy at the sight of clothes, earrings and shoes! Well, it was more of me when it came to shoes la... haha!

From Bugis Village to Far East Plaza, all we looked at were clothes! That's what you'll get if you place 2 girls in town with cash!!! Forget about limiting your shopping and sticking close to the budget! haha! So freaking impossible!

Anyways, after an afternoon of shopping, we chilled at Shaw Mac's.... Snapped some pics (refer to Liy's blog). Got a bit bored of the place coz town was extremely empty on a Sunday! Why? I've no idea myself. Could it be because of the head that was found in orchard a week and a half back? ....

After which we decided to try our luck at BK Liat. We were freaking amazed! It was no difference at all. Deserted. We bumped into Ailing and Valerie and they invited us to a "bar" at Kiliney Road.

Once again, you can check out the pics at Liy's blog...I'm too lazy to upload.

Cheers to an adventurous day. ;)

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

In my free time...


I did this. Hah!





Presenting...

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